As you can see, that definitely hasn't happened. And I am not going to sugar coat anything, because I have been lazy and sloppy, I have put my social life first and I would not change the past 6 months of my life in the slightest way.
For the first time in my life, I am naturally happy, I don't feel like I have to force a smile in order to be a part of a group. I don't find myself mulling around at social occasions counting down the minutes until I could go home. I cannot remember the last time I wanted to cry because my mind was playing with my and making me feel like the world was against me. And it has been amazing.
I have a small social group who I am continuously going out with, experiencing new things, going on holiday, and they are just the biggest pleasure to be around. I have accepted myself and who I am and used that to my abilities to make myself the best person I can be.
This blog was something that I started around the time of my parents divorce and it was something that I could escape to and release all the passion and love that I have into a band that I truly aspire to be like. I spent hours and hours on Twitter, making friends and tweeting the girls because I stuggled to talk to people in person so talking behind a screen made everything better.
This blog, and the CimFam fandom on Twitter has helped me a lot over the past 5-6 years and I have made some friends that I will have for life. I have some of the best expeirecnes and became closer to my all time favourite band. Twitter was a great help in giving me a place to be myself without feeling judged by people I knew, without that place I feel like I would have exploded.
But the past 6 months, my use of Twitter was very low and I lost connections with a lot of fans who I use to talk to a lot. Over the past few weeks I realised that I haven't been on Twitter much or uploading blogs a lot because I am getting to a point where I am happy with my life and I don't need the internet to do that.
I am still going to be a huge Cimorelli fan and I will still be spending on their merchendise, music, tours, and franticly watching their YouTube videos, but I will not be on Twitter as much and as for this blog, I would be lying if I said that I would be coming back to it in the future. If one day I decide to write about Cimorelli again the I will be straight back here, but this isn't a big priority.
I will still continue my writing in different ways as this is something that is my passion.
I was to thank EVERY SINGLE PERSON that has ever read my blog, given me positive feedback because you have all been a huge help in the change and growth of myself as a person. I also want to say a huge thank you to Cimorelli who have helped me in ways they cannot even imagine, with their music, their inspiring words and their welcoming personalities. They helped me through the darkets places and I don't think there will ever come a day were there music will not make me emitonal.
The past 4 years of my life have been a rollercoaster, and I am happy to say that I am quickly working my way up to the top, and you guys were a massive help with that. Thank you CimFam and Cimorelli.
Maybe I will see you soon.
Thank you.
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